Day 5/100 = I did not tie, I worked on another fiber art project.
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Day 6/100 = I did not tie, had new nerve pain. Intuited the Collective Tarot post on what we can offer ourselves . I realized “I am a worm”. I meditated.
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Day 7/100 = I did not tie. Continued nerve pain. Committed the reading from yesterday to type. Did some set up and container making for a good rope session tomorrow.
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Day 8/100 = I did tie a little. Mostly getting used to making a production or ritual of the act of tying. Creating an event for me to be entranced by because doesn’t everyone want to be entranced by some event at some point?
Setting the container really made all the difference!
I had a good experience in the first session a week ago, but this one is great.
I set up a camera so I could get a few images of myself tying. The result had the desired effect. I could see myself from a new angle and see the beauty in my form that can get lost when I am too close to get a proper view of me.
I am super excited about this uv reactive rope, it so pretty and shows up really well on camera.
I am just about floored with how much my confidence is soaring right now and I did this tie yesterday. The sheer groundbreaking power of three well placed knots binding a leg to my torso is mind boggling to me even though I had half expected and mostly had a hunch that it was true; hoping that I wan’t on a wild goose chase.
But no, no wild goose chase here. Just the simple bindings of someone wanting to hold them self together with actual knots for long enough to find some semblance of order in a mind that at times feels very, very feral.
Day 9/100 = I worked on setting up some blog stuff here and really getting into the swing of how this writing anything other than poetry works. Had some realizations. Drank coffee. Good conversations moving the story along. Reflecting on the tie session yesterday, I truly do feel transcendental in my mood today. Maybe I will look up and read about transcendental pastimes tomorrow. Oh look, it just became the next day!!
It is 00:28, How has this session/day served my ability to nurture myself? I feel self validated in following what I thought would be true and finding out that it really is. Although I only made a few knots, I set the stage and curated a space for me to feel beautiful, held and soft which are not feelings that I always prioritize on my behalf.
How have I served my own illusions today? I drank coffee and had long conversation sharing my thoughts. I invested in my own thoughts, illusions and self by signing up for course.
What illusions do I want to serve? I want to serve the illusions that keep me on the path that is meant for me while allowing for me to grow and be a better person.
What can I do to slow down and offer nurturance to, in and on behalf of others? I can reinvigorate the snail mail campaign that I started last year. Woooo!! Send people mail!!
– Xygenexos
